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HOME SWEET HOME [10 Nov 2008|02:22pm] im home finally ive been away for 6 months well 9 if you really think about it rileys is turning one im so excited to be home with him.. i missed him so much.. everything else seems to be ok ive been clean for 7 months and have just been lounging around for the last few days cuz i dont have anything else to do with myself so.. im just waiting for a check and some shit to start picking up for me so i can do something with my time other then sit at the friggin library! my tears

Good Morning Love [03 Jun 2007|02:33pm] Well Its Been Such A long time...My love has come to live with thee..hes got a job 3with my uncle and we are having a baby..im due january 9th 2008..everything seems to be coming together ive been going to drug counseling and taking drug tests daily..we have our differences but i mean who doesnt..well just thought id stop by and give a quick one.. ill be around..if you know me youll know where to find me..later BITCHES! 1 suffocated * my tears

yup yup [25 Dec 2006|04:40am] yeah so i know ive been mia for like the longest time... dont really remember what ive been up to or waht ive been doing but im hear to say whats up and i miss you alll ...! i dont know its christmas eve and im drunk like usual! 1 suffocated * my tears

[27 Jul 2006|09:00pm] wow its been longer then a year since i posted... dont remember where ive been .. b ubt never doing good.. love you all be back soon bitches! 3 suffocated * my tears

[01 Jul 2005|03:29pm] yup so ive just been working at market basket and chillin. partying my ass off and having a great fucking time. i slowed down drinking alot in the last 2 months. so thats good but the coke just takes over.if its there you do it if you have money you do it. its just the ways its been going. i work and still have not a penny in my pocket its not good. i dunno im out 3 suffocated * my tears

[03 May 2005|02:25pm] yay. i might have a job at market basket. sounds like fun doesnt it. not. but money is money and i need money. my tears

[27 Apr 2005|12:01pm] DROWNING by me. I sit drowning in a pool of my own blood, drowning, waiting for someone to pull me out, but no, no one comes to help me, the razors keep cutting at me, trying to kill me i suppose, then the blood starts dripping from my nose, it will not stop as much as i want it to, it doesnt, the blood flow keeps flowing, increasing, help me, someone please help me, stop this pain at once, but no, no one comes, as i lie dying, drowning in a pool of my own blood. my tears

[26 Apr 2005|12:16pm] my dad caught me at the crack house and threw jose up against the wall. then i took off for 2 days and stayed at christas until some shit went down and her boyfriend didnt want me there any more, so i came home and the minute my dad knew i was home he called the cops and i got taken to the court house from there i went to winchester hospital then i was supposed to go to a rehab until i told them id kill myself if they sent me there so i got the pleasure of spending 10 days in the adolescent unit at bournewood hospital it only sucked because i couldnt smoke butts. but im home now only because my dad talked to the judge other wise id have to stay there for 30 days. now i have random drug tests twice a month, i have to go to n/a meetings for 6 months,6months outpatient drug counseling,9pm curfew, no association with drug addicts, and i have to have a job in 2 weeks or i go to mci framingham for 6 months and get a years probation.that fucking sucks i think i would have been better off just doing the fucking 30 days in rehab.renee got sent away to dys until she is 18 unless they can find a rehab for her. im so pissed about that, i know she did it to herself but i miss her so much and i love her to death i hope she doesnt have to stay there till shes 18. i dont know what i would do with myslef without her. 4 suffocated * my tears

[12 Apr 2005|07:31pm] so in the last week ive been getting shitfaced, doin coke, and freebasing it. my dads kindof pissed at me becasue ive been coming home at like 2 3 4 and 5 am. which hes so not happy about. but i was just too fucked up to realize the time and shit. i dont know nothing new i guess well renees coming down and we are gunna get a 30 so later. 1 suffocated * my tears

[28 Mar 2005|12:28am] so last sunday i went to little renees iceskating show then i went to dinner at my dads friends house for dinner and hung out with his son ed, i guess weve known each other our whole lives but i dont really remember and we're going out. i like ed.went to a couple parties this week its not so bad living here now that ive met some wicked chill people. i went to the party house with marisa and she stole like 100 cds from me that little bitch. but i met christa and adrianna i think 2 weeks ago and their cool.went to a hotel party with ed on thursday they wanted a double bed room and they gave us a single so they girl that got it said that we could stay in the other room while they went to the new one so we drank some beers and smoked a joint and some guy came to the door and was like this is my room so he said we could have five minutes to get out their were like 10 of us running back and forth across the hall with beers and then the house cleaning lady came up and said it smelt like pot in the other room and she wasnt going to call the cops but we all took off anywaysand ended up in hond pond parking lot drinkning and more people came and i guess we went back to pj's house and i was puking and fell asleep in the back seat while they fouhgt some kids or whatever. i dont know it was fun though.my mom took me shopping friday during the day and bought me 2 sweatshirts, ed was with us and he took off while me and my mom were in cvs and i couldnt find him i ran all up and down the fucking mall and he doesnt have a cell phone so i was fucked but then i told my mom and sister and renee to go shop while i looked for him and took one of their cells but after a while i was like ill just go smoke a butt and maybe hell be their so im outside and after a minute ed shows up with rachel wall and zack brown. which was good because i didnt know waht else to do id been up and down the mall like 4 times. so my mom left my sister and renee at the mall to drive me, ed, rachel,and zack, down to woburn to go to kerwin, nicol and aletta's masive moving party. but their just moving up the street so its not that bad. we all got so fucking shitfaced, it was great. im loving the parties around here. thier great. my tears

[17 Mar 2005|04:42pm] i had an interview at family dollar. but i have to have my dad sign some shit to release my background, i want him to find out whats on there before they do. and im gunna have to have my sister pee for me. but hopefully i can get the job. so i went in there and shes like have you ever boughten or used illegal drugs and im like no but then when i was walking home i remembered my shoe says 420 on it and i hope she didnt see it but she seemed like a cool chick she was young and had some cool piercings.ill either say some one else wrote it or i got nervous i dont know i think ill go with someone else wrote it. went out with kristin last night and met a wicked cool guy the kid she likes was like all over me and i was like im definetly not buddy. but his cousins hot. thats about it. 1 suffocated * my tears

[16 Mar 2005|11:27am] well monday i went out in search for a job and as i was making my last run i saw mike. laurens bf. so we got some beers and hung out for the night i just called my dad and told him i wasnt coming home. so we met up with his 2 freinds and we decided to get a hotel in cambrige. he got me a bottle of hennessy and some vodka. i was happy cuz i was drunk but i did something wicked stupid.which i dont care to mention. then yesterday i hung out with jose and he gave me a ride to school and maurieca and me decided to get up in the middle of class and just leave the guy said that was fine that if we already knew that stuff we could take off so she brought me to her firends house which is basically a party house 24/7 so im not complaining.so we went there and they were having a party so we stayed and boozed it up.so last night all i got was southern comfort and vodka(caldwells)(eeeeeeeeeeew). but anyways. maurieca and that crew are cool. met a wicked hott kid.so if im lucky we can hookup. because i think mike is getting tired of my drunken night phone calls or just talking to me in general which i dont understand because i give him what he wants. but i know that we are just a hook up so why does he get jealous when i do shit with other people.i dont know. that bad thing is i got all these numbers the last two nights and i dont really know anyones name.. my bad oh well i can find them out.well i had fun im gunna keep the party going. PARTY ALL THE TIME. my tears

[11 Mar 2005|10:39pm] yes now i feel like a complete dumbass. so i went out with jose and came home and was eating food when i bit down on one of my tongue ring balls and went searching in my mouth full of food for my tongue ring well it turns out i swallowed it and to keep the hole open i have a piece of wire through the hole and wrapped around it self. i just thought that was so interesting i called jose and he said dont puke it up because its a solid object it wont come up because he knows people that has happened to i was just freaked out because i never experienced this before. my tears

[11 Mar 2005|02:59pm] Throw things out there and not be perfect and not have answers to anything and see if people understand. Razors pain you, rivers are damp, acid stains you, drugs cause cramps, guns arent lawful, nooses give, gas smells awful, you might as well live my tears

[10 Mar 2005|11:37pm] slept at mikes house last night it was fun. started my ged classes tonight, not bad. need a job. renee went to the mental house again. i visited her twice. um not too much new.. ill update my tears

[05 Mar 2005|05:06pm]             hailtothe_thief is love brought to you by the isLove Generator I adopted a cute lil' poison fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! my tears

[05 Mar 2005|01:22pm] hung out with kristin, brian,mike,daniel, and her bf. had so much fun it was great we all played strip shots. had some pina colada, rootbeer,vodka,malibu, and some beers. wooa that shit will get you drunk fast. so much fun. love you guys. thank you for a great time i havent had that much fun in awhile. my tears

[04 Mar 2005|03:55pm] i dont know stole this from some ones journal because i liked it and i can. She goes above and beyond her call of duty. She is a slut but X thinks it's sexy. Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti. I am wasted but I'm ready. my tears

[28 Feb 2005|07:36pm] found out today that i cant go to billerica schools, because i dont live in billerica. mother fuckers! got to go by the rules. bitches. well now my plan of action is to drop out and actually get my ged oh yeah and work fulltime. sounds like fun doesnt it. i know your all jealous. my tears

[24 Feb 2005|02:39pm] renee's home. im so happy! “I need more sex, OK? Before I die I wanna taste everyone in the world.” ~Angelina*Jolie~ 3 suffocated * my tears

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